here I am

Morning drama

2011-12-05T03:41:00.003+08:00

1AM. I'm wide awake. I was woken up by headache. Head pain that caused of CRYING.
Yeah I'm crying my eyes out. Why??

I was on the phone, talking to my boyfriend. I know he is not feeling well. But I dont know what he is really thinking. Not until I talked to him. I was shocked when he asked me: "Masama ba ko? Why am I always sick? Parusa ba to?". My tears started falling. I know what he meant. He keeps on talking, while me? I'm just crying. Yeah. I'm still a crybaby. It's really a mixed emotions that I am felling right now.

My heart melted when he said "I can't talk to you about it personally, coz I know you'll cry. I don't wanna see you cry. Para akong mamamatay pag nakikita kitang umiiyak." The next thing he said really made me cry out loud. He said, "I don't want to die. Because I don't want you to cry. Lumalaban ako everytime na may sakit ako kasi iniisip kita, alam ko iiyak ka. Lumalaban ako para sa'yo... I still want to live and marry you". If I can only get the pain he has. :( That time, I wanna go back there and hug him. Let him feel that he's not alone. That I am here, always ready to support him. To be his strength
when he is weak. I don't wanna hear him nor see him like that. It's hard for me. I don't know where or how our conversation out it stopped. What I know is that I am praying. Praying for him. Until now I am still crying. I don't wanna go back and recall that conversation. It makes my heart break.

Sorry if I am ranting in here. I just can't find someone/anyone to share it.

Anyway! it's Monday today! 5 of December, 2011 to be exact. One more day and I will be 23 years old! Still can't wait until tomorrow. Why? that a different story so I will cut it from here. hehe

For you..

2011-05-08T20:41:00.008+08:00

Today I got a chance to sneak on my computer. I miss to visit social networking sites.

I just like to update my blog.
I became more busy this time and lazier to update this. I feel guilty not having time to do blogging.

I can't think of any topic. So I decide to share this instead.

This day is our monthsary of my boyfriend.

Hindi ko na sasabihin kung gano na kami katagal. basta monthsary namin. un na un.. hehe (No one knows kung ganu na kami katagal kaya secret din dapat dito)

I'm so blessed to have him in my life.
It's my first time to have someone like him.
At first our relationship is so ~~complicated~~. We already face the toughest challenge we may ever had. But time passes by its went smoothly well.

He is a great motivator, I know he is always there to support me. He is always ready to listen whenever I share my burdens.
Just the way he care me, I can feel his love though he always say so.. hehe
He is also sweet, which is the opposite of me. haha!
that's why he always says "kaya namimiss kita eh.., sweet kasi ako!"
no dull moments with him, he likes teasing me up to the point na napipikon na ko. haha!

From those attitudes, the lapses that he has is not that visible in my eyes.

Not just that, his family.. their so kind and humble. They love me and I so love them too!

Can't ask for more. I'm contented on what I currently have. ^_^ I can't demand for something now.

He always give message for our special day, so here's mine:

My message for you...

Thank you, for being there all the time that I need you.
Thank you, for the patience and trust.
Thank you, for the care and love.
Thank you, for the assurance and sincerity.

I hope you won't change. I know our relationship now is far stronger than before. I hope we'll last forever.

I love you so much sweetie koh.. (*.*)
More love to come..

refreshing day...

2011-02-10T10:23:00.005+08:00

I'm so eager to do things I haven't done for years.

I'll do few updates only while I'm uploading some pictures on my FACEBOOK.

This past few months I'm making myself busy busier than ever.

Not to think how stressed I am on my daily routine.

good thing we have this team building!

Time to release all the stress from work and personal life.

Here we are at La Primera Bataan for our Team building!

TEAM SES + TEAM SHEY = FUN

So good to be here. The weather is good and the air is fresh.

So love it!

I hope to do this again.

next time in baguio!

here are some of the pictures that I so like. ^_^

I want to experience this again, with my friends. REAL FRIENDS. (^_;)
I'll be much happy if that would happen.

oh btw. I would like you to meet my baby. (^_^)
I so love her.

mac mac

all in one

2010-11-22T18:58:00.003+08:00

While uploading photos at facebook, I grab the opportunity to update my blog.

Missing this again.
I became neglectful of my blog since I started working.
There’s lot of things happened to me after my last update.
I felt the stress, sadness, excitement and happiness.
I cry, I laugh, I shout.
some shits happened unexpectedly.
But solutions surely follow.

Anyway, here is the latest update.

My personal life is doing fine actually. Haven’t got any problem at home(yess!)
We are all doing well. Thanks!

I also had time to see my old friends and had little chitchats.
We keep on updating each other. We make sure that no one is left behind. (^_^)

xoxoxox

Team Elmir was dissolved. Each of us was distributed into different team. So meaning to say some of those people in my last post weren’t my teammates anymore (except for jerwin and belle.).

It’s hard to say goodbye to those people who became part of your daily system. Though I always see them at work, it won’t be the same as before.

Yet I’m glad I was back with my old team.
Thank God, people around me are so kind.

Speaking of new Team, We had a chance to take advantage our black off.
We went to Tagaytay and Echanted Kingdom yesterday. I sooo love it!!!
I’ll post some pictures on my next update. ^^

xoxoxox

22. My birthday is fast approaching.
Time flies so fast.I’m still thinking if I will organize a party. That will depend on my availability ofcourse.

xoxoxox

And Love. Hmmmn. I’m still confused. Haha!
I’m going to think about it if I will share it here. :p
(^_^)",)

Nonetheless, I feel happy and contented on what I have and what I am now.
(~.+)

random

2010-10-10T11:38:00.012+08:00

I just got home from work.
I feel like I want to update my blog so here I am.

I actually have headache now.
Its because I'm crying the whole night.

Well its a long story.
but I'll make it short.
It's starts when my supervisor and I talked about my current performance.
I cried because I'm touched in all that he said to me.
(tagos sa puso ba.)

I know I'm a crybaby. So what?
I want to cry. I want to release all my emotions.
So it ends up with a headache.haist.

xoxoxox

anyways. I still love my team even though I'm super pressured on my stats.
And I'm very much happy to be with them.
So here, I'm sharing some of our pictures.

 (team lunch)

 at marquee mall c:



(",)(",)

oh no! I'm starting to be a shopaholic again. @.@
every payday I'm buying lot of things.
bags. dress. shirts. jeans. shoes.
now I'm browsing my FB and saw a dress in an online shop.
oh gosh. I need to save money!

hiatus

2010-08-01T12:05:00.006+08:00

Witttt!!
I miss the cyber world
And blogging ofcourse.
My work is preventing me to do those things I love to do. :c
Most of the time I'm too tired to open my accounts,
maybe because I’m in front of the PC for 9hrs almost everyday.

**
Last pay day, some of my teammates and I went to APO after work.
Woah!
I bought wallet and 2 blouse.
Guess how much it is??

Wallet = 100PHP
Blouse = 50PHP each.

Too cheap right??haha

The day before that, I bought blouse at SM for 400PHP.
I haven’t expected that I can still buy blouse with my 100PHP.
If I only waited for one more day maybe I already have 8 blouses for 400PHP.

It's okay though.

uh oh..

I think I’m gonna stop here.Its already past 12 noon and I haven’t got any sleep yet. I need to take a rest. Tomorrow is another day for irate customers (and irate agents too. ;p)

Oh by the way! before i finally bid goodbye, I want to share this one quick news.

We have a party on August 5! I’m so excited!
The theme is 70’s. ugh! We need to go with our best vintage costumes. Ouch! *_*

hahaay...

I’m starting to love my work. ^_^
It’s not the work itself, I’m enjoying it because of my team. Love them all.
Sooo cool!!

busy life.

2010-07-03T14:49:00.009+08:00

I can’t sleep! arrgh! It’s freakin’ hot in here.  :c
That’s why I only got 4 hours sleep.
Good thing is that it’s my RD today. So I can sleep later tonight.

Anyways, there’s nothing really important about this blog. I just to update it.hehe

Random happenings:
have new sup. we were reshuffled in diff teams. I was transferred from sup ses to sup El. he's so cool and very supportive. 
My friends and I had a get together. (some are busy). We watched toy story 3 and it's so cool! best movie. I had mixed emotions while watching it. Love it! Worth every penny. Next movie: Eclipse.
moved out of our dorm and now staying here in Dau.
I loss weight. :C
  
 xoxo

Plans:

hoping to see Erika today(cross finger. And spend quality time with her.Miss her so much. January was the last time I saw her.

want to go shopping!! Harr! Later. I hope I have enough money to buy something for my self.

save money. haha!

xoxo

Wishes:

wish to have new phone.

Get a lower ATT in my work.wenkz!

Gain more weight.

longer Rest Day. (sup??haha)

Hindi ko ipagsisiksikan ang sarili ko sa mga TAOng ayaw ako.
(-.-)

wow mali

2010-06-07T06:31:00.002+08:00

good morning.

I'm here in our site now, in the internet room to be exact.

the only place to access my fb and blog.

It's a NO NO when I am in the floor.

Anyways I'm just here to rant.

on my previous post I said that I have a shift today until 9am. right?

but guess what?

when I went to the floor last night, I found out that it still my off.

oh my!!

My supervisor and teammates are not there.

I talked to the other sup and adviced me to go home or to take phone calls.

I choose to go home.

but how can I do that if it is already midnight?

I stayed at the nap room instead.

good thing though, I'm not alone.

meaning my friend too thought that she has a schedule at midnight.hehe

I regret the loss hours that I can use to stay at home.

I decided to take my moms advice, so I'm going home later. ^_^

I miss my bed. (o^_^o)

shift problem.

2010-06-06T14:02:00.002+08:00

I went home yesterday after my shift and finally I'm able to update my blog. ^_^

My training and nesting went well. Friday was the last day of my training, and our trainer was not there. So sad she's not there for the last time. Sir (I don't know his name.sorry. haha) took care of us. He distributed us to our designated supervisors. I haven't met my sup, but they said he's good. I hope so. (I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt.) So sad my friends and I are not in the same team. c: so that means we don't have the same schedule started yesterday. That will be fine. I can do it!

Anyways, I hate my schedule, it's 12am – 9am for this week. Shocks! How the hell am I going to travel from my dorm to the site? Knowing that there is no transportation jeep when the clock hits 8pm.

I'm thinking of going to work early, 7pm maybe together with my dormmates. I'd rather stay at the site than in the dorm ALONE. I'm scared. our dorm is super creepy, you know. I feel differently whenever I'm there. Wahehe.

I am also thinking about grabbing my moms suggestion of going home daily, since my schedule is 12-9am. Its just the same as staying at the dorm.. hmmn.. what do you think? I still have time to think about it.

byebye na,,..

2010-05-23T15:21:00.002+08:00

One more day, and I’m going to leave Tarlac.
I was transferred in Clark
So good luck to me!
I will try to be independent.
Far from my family and friends,
I’m kinda afraid yet excited.

Ofcourse, new life
New people to meet
New challenges
New adventure
(o^_^o)

Weeh! I really don’t know what to feel.
Haizt!
I hope everything will be okay.

P.S: Starting tomorrow, I might not able to update my blog regularly.

wave 5A together with Boss

2010-05-17T15:32:00.003+08:00

Shocks!
Its been a long time since my last update here.
I'm kinda busy lately.

Anyways...
I made this post for our PST trainer.

To our Daddy

The first day of our discussion made me afraid.
My impression that time is that you’re strict and kinda snob.
But days passed, you showed the real you.
Jolly and easy to deal with,
You started the “kalokohan” inside the training room.
That’s the time I felt at ease.

In your class, you gave us freedom to discuss everything.
Even if it is off topic or not,
Though we always play during the class,
“BUNOT” sessions as I call it,
I can still say that I’ve learned a lot from you.

I’m a little worried when I first hit the floor.
But the moment that I read your message for us,
Saying that you are proud of us,
all my fears are gone and confidence boost in.

When you had different schedule from us,
I felt worried again,
Question like, who is going to guide us?
But then again, you watched us from afar.
You stayed on track of what we are doing.

For us you’re not just a trainer.
But you are also our Boss, Daddy and friend
Who impart knowledge to us,
And support us all the way into the production floor.

You’re such a wonderful person.
One of the best trainers I ever had.
I never regret to be a part of wave 5A.
And I’m proud of you as our trainer.

Now this season came to an end.
I’m not sad when they said that we are part of the ramp down.
But when I read you’re last message for us.
It seems like I wanted to cry.
Until the end you did not forget us.
Supportive as ever.

I know just like us, you also treasure the memories we shared.
Laughter heard by others.
The secrets revealed,
The sexy sing and dance
Kissed to the neck, nose and ears
And all other “BUNOT” things that we did.

In your way back to Clark,
I know you will take all those mem'ries with you
We all hate goodbyes..
So see you around…

And ALL I can say is…

WAVE 5A ROCKS!!

And you ROCK OUR WORLD DADDY!

PST...

2010-04-21T11:58:00.006+08:00

Good morning.
I just woke up, and I feel the urge of blogging though I’m still sleepy.

Yesterday was a day for training.I don’t like my schedule. [3PM - 11PM]. I’m having a problem going home.I need to travel for almost an hour, so it means 12 midnight na ko makakauwi. Kailangan pa ko sunduin. ~_~ [If only I have a choice, I’d rather choose the 11PM - 7AM schedule.]

Looking at the bright side, I don’t need to wake up early. Hehe!
I can stay on my bed as late as I wanted.hakz!

As a whole, the training went well, we had fun. We also have new classmates. Hehe! They came from other batch of trainees. May nahiwalay din na isa from our batch. So sad.

And one more thing, it is very obvious that we badly miss our previous trainer (Elzo!) because of what we did in our activity. Most of my co- trainees used the Elzo’s often-use-lines such as “but wait… there’s more!” , “ready (which we pronounce as reydi. hehe).

Anyway.. I hope this training will be that fun as what we had before. It’s not impossible because our trainer now seems so nice.  [I'll give him the benefit of a doubt.] ^_^

I want to share my new name plate.. whahehe!
at the bottom is my new notebook! our trainer gave one for each of us.
babaw ko talaga. (--,)

so cute. (o^_^o)
Ate Ara made it for me..

campain jingles

2010-04-16T16:18:00.008+08:00

Philippine election is fast approaching.
That is why all candidates are too busy enticing the public.
To make sure that they will get the votes they need to win the election.

And now, every single minute I can see vehicles roaming around the street, with their campaign jingles on big stereos. I now memorized most of their nonsense jingles because of their frequent visit to our place. Oh, You can also use it as your alarm clock. Yeah. They actually ruined my morning sleep. That is why I’m pissed off.

I know campaign jingle is really helpful for the politicians. But please… don’t do it now and then. Not every minute of the day. Owver kayo!!

Honestly, it’s irritating. NAKAKABINGI. NAKAKADAGDAG SA NOISE POLLUTION at TRAFFIC. Say it all. its just random noise that gives me headache!

I wish the election will be tomorrow *_* , so that all those loud, noisy vehicles will stop!

magnetize..haha!

2010-03-28T14:56:00.008+08:00

We had our first activity in our training and it was a role playing. We are divided into five groups, each group had a specific trait to portray. I belong to group one and the trait we've got is “Insistent on choice”. We are given 20 minutes for brainstorming and practice, and 3-5 minutes to perform.

Most groups used call center scenarios, they did well though. Ours is different. “unique kung baga”. What we've done is a shopping scenario. Three of us acted as the shoppers and the two are the sales representatives. The concept is kinda serious if you read it. But it's the other way around. Our role play is really hilarious!

these are the reasons why:

magtinda ka ba naman ng jacket this summer?
Hanapin ba naman smin ung “jacket department” daw..
maghanap ba naman ng jacket na pang rock star daw to “magnetize” all girls.
Finally, pagkasukat ng jacket sabay tanong sa kasama ng “do I look like a rock star?” at parang adik lang na sasagot ung kasama ng “oh! You like like a rider!” :p

I hope I will not encounter those kind of demanding and “lakas trip” na customers. :p
All trainees burst their laughters, even us. I really can't hold my laughs. Hindi ko kasi inanasahan na ganun kalalabasan un. Haha! Loved it! We all had fun! Thats matter most. Right?

Oh by the way, that role play was graded actually. Elzo our trainer, counted every lapses we made and we got so many. *_* (that's because of using some of the out the world words.) Even though, we're still the winner! I don't know why. Ask Elzo if you like. Hehe. Kiddin. And ofcourse if we are the winner, we have a price! Yii! And that is a free lunch for our group.. wow! Our trainer is generous, isn't he?

p.s:

sorry for the language shifting ^_^

my life's mountain

2010-03-15T22:21:00.002+08:00

My family is now facing a problem, an unfamiliar one and the biggest among others that we encounter in our entire life.

It’s too personal so I can’t broadcast it online. Either my friends doesn’t know the full details.
I can’t tell them. I didn’t know where to run off.

I really don’t have the idea on how to handle this situation because I didn’t expect it to happen even in my dreams. I’m not prepared.

In a second, our life was changed; our dreams and hopes are melting little by little. It’s hard for me to see my parents crying. I can see the pain in their eyes. It hurts. But I don’t want to cry, I don’t want to show that I’m weak. I want to stand straight for them.

I must hold on. God gave me the signs to do so.

A day after I knew that problem, we had our free speech for the post assessment of our training. I chose topic number ten and it was “In God, We trust”. I almost cried and my voice was shaking while explaining my topic. I just hold my tears back for not to attract attention.

And a while ago, I was reading an article of an old news paper. The title caught my curiosity, it’s entitled “Conquering Life’s Mountains.” It inspires me.

I like what the author said. “In life we will always be faced with mountains. Some could be hills with trails that are easy to climb and cross; others could be Everests that require more of our faith, courage and strength to overcome.”

I know that our trek through this mountain that we’re facing right now is just an obstacle that we need to hurdle and soon God will permit us to see the beauty and breathtaking sceneries at the top of this mountain. I know it will happen because I trust HIM.

pissed off

2010-03-12T11:14:00.001+08:00

This update is a piece of crap!
I just want to release this feeling thru blogging.

These past few days, I have a very short temper. I will not enumerate the various reasons why.

I reached my boiling point when I had troubles in uploading some pictures in the internet cafe. The on-off connection of their internet pissed me off. its so slow like a snail. I felt irritated that I almost wanted to throw the computer peripherals. I tried myself to troubleshoot but the command was disabled, they have tight security. (Ok fine!) So what I did is nagged the assistants to fix the problem immediately because my time is running and the rent was pretty much expensive compare to other cafes. Still they can’t do it. How about my facebook?! my Blog?! Urgh! They assured me that no one can access my accounts as long as the PC was restarted. Their fooling me, no they’re fooling their selves. They know and I know that my accounts are still logged on when the connection is back. I got all the reasons to grumble and curse under my breath.

graduation party

2010-03-10T08:52:00.011+08:00

I still have bruises that I got when we had our swimming party.

Friday was the last day of our 15 days training, so our group decided to have a mini party that was held last February 28, 2010.

One of my co trainees did not come but it doesn’t lessen the fun and excitement!

We started at 2PM until 9:30PM. I really enjoyed the night. It’s something new to me, because before I wasn’t allowed to go on a night swimming. Now it’s different! We had food such as Spaghetti, Pancit, Graham cake, sandwiches, Inihaw na tilapia, salted egg, mango and a lot more yummy food.

There was also a videoke in the cottage that we rented. We sang out loud, and we were not bothered on what others might say about our not so so good voices. hehe (I’m confident now! Huh!)

And who says cameras was absent?? Absolutely wrong, we’re certified camera whores. We’ve got a total of 171 shots from my cam. I don’t know how many there was in Raf and kuya Renzo’s cam.

betina, me, rose and kuya plasm

my co trainees

There was also the sad part of this event, the announcement of the passers. Seven out of thirteen trainees passed and I’m so happy because I’m one of them, but also sad for the others not because they didn’t made it, but for the reason that I might not see them again.

our trainers
(ms. joanne and raf)

I got teary eyes whenever I think of them; I’m missing my co trainees and trainers.

The talks, laughter, jokes, fun, lessons and everything we’ve shared.

Great Friday

2010-02-19T19:55:00.000+08:00

Thank God it’s Friday!

Time is really running so fast! It’s the 10th day of our training. But it seems like I’m with my co trainees for almost a year.

We’ve talked a lot of things today. From our first impression to the things we’ve learned from the training.
Hell! What happened to us?
We still have a week before the training will end. But we were all serious while talking. It looks like we were saying our goodbyes. :c

Sooo Sad...

I hate sad topics, so I will proceed to the lighter one.

We performed our skit today. The first group impersonated the show “the buzz” and the other one performed the "ugly duckling". My stomach really ached because of the two groups.
Well, our skit is different from the others; we've made a drama which turns into comedy because of Ralph! (our trainer). He was reacting while recording our skit. His facial reactions made us laughed! (that is why I forgot some of my lines.haha!) Its ok though..

As a whole, we all had fun. Though we didn’t put any effort on it, still we’ve all got good comments from our trainor.

I hope our remaining week will be as good as this day. :>

Red vs. Green

2010-02-16T18:37:00.004+08:00

We had our one on one debate awhile ago.

What funny is that the topic I’ve got is color Red same as the color of my shirt,

while my opponent got Green same also of what she is wearing.

Our trainers said “are you sure you’ve got red and green?” We were like yeah?” while laughing. could you imagine that?! of all topic why we've got colors? Haha!

While we were having our debate, Joanne is busy recording the event so that we can watch it and see our common errors. But when we saw it, we were all laughing and forgot all the things she told us to do. c:

Sorry Ma'am

Karma

2010-02-15T15:14:00.000+08:00

Today is the second week of our training; so far this is the worse day I ever had. Not really worse, it’s shameful.

We played a game. I don’t know what game it is so I named it The Karma Game. The story goes like this; we submitted a piece of paper with our name in it. Our trainer let us picked from those papers. (Whomever we’ve got we needed to write something that we wanted that person to do). So I’ve got Psalm (this guy looks like Gibo) what I wrote on his paper is “I want you to sing and dance Boom Boom Pow of Black Eyed Peas”.

Then the time came to play the real game, our trainer picked one from the papers, and he got Psalm. I was like “oh no! I’m the one who wrote the request for him; I hope Psalm won’t mind it.”

But I became more shocked when Joanne (our other trainer) said that instead of Psalm, I am the one who will perform my own request, same for the others actually. When I heard that I wanted to shout.. haha! I can’t imagine myself singing and dancing in front of many people. I stand there for almost ten minutes I think. Haha! I didn’t even remember how I made it.

I hate my own karma!

back for real??

2010-02-12T17:23:00.006+08:00

Oh yeah I’m back!

I really missed blogging.,

It's been seven months since my last updates..

sooo long time ago!!

But now, I’ll try to bring back this blog into life again.

though I can’t do it regularly,

I'll try to make an update as often as I can.

first awards

2009-07-22T16:22:00.005+08:00

I was doing a lil blog hopping a while ago to check out others blog, and then I saw Catherine’s old post.

I got tagged by her weeks ago. I’ve just noticed it only today.
I felt delighted when I found it out. (late reaction?haha!)

since these are my very first awards, I wanted to post them..

I want to shout my thanks to Catherine for these two awards!

i would like to pass these awards to the ff:
airen, batang nars, jaime, and kryk.

(I'm such a rule breaker.lol)

THE RULES:

1.) Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his or her blog link.

2.) Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

***

so sorry for this very late post. >_<

freakin' boring..

2009-07-21T11:30:00.006+08:00

AGAIN, I’ve been gone for so looong…>_<
but I’m back and I’m sick! Hehe but im recovering by now.

Apparently, I'm getting lazy to update my blog more frequently
I have some excuses..
I'm busy, and i dont have anything to say though.
besides nothings important on my past weeks.

Cam whoring is the best way to escape boredom.

I cannot resist the temptation. Haha!

I’m so tired of reading, and do some reviews.
What else can I do?tss!

****
Anyway my civil service examination is near approaching,

geeez! I’m nervous and I can’t bear it.

enjoying the heat of the sun!! :D

2009-06-29T22:40:00.001+08:00

After wan-hundred-syete-mil years of being isolated, finally!
I went out and enjoyed the heat of the sun.’! duhh..

Anyways! I just accompanied Erika at the city hall for her to register at the comelec.
Ang saya! Makakaboto na kami next year. Atleast may silbi na kami sa bayan. Haha!

We went also at the SSS for her ID.
It’s already 3PM when she finished the processing.
Nagpunta kagad kami ng Mcdo para makakain. Erika ordered chicken fillet, burger and fries. (LUNCH + MERYENDA = BUSOG NA TYAN! )
It isn’t obvious that we were starving right?! Haha!

**

One more thing, we visited Pam (one of our friends), after 4 years (I think) we had given a chance to see her again.
And for the first time, we met her hubby!
She’s also pregnant, and any moment pwede na syang manganak.
She can’t wait for to deliver her baby!

I’m so tired yet happy.. a big smile plastered on my face..

moments for me..

2009-06-24T16:42:00.005+08:00

I honestly don’t know what to blog..

So please bear with me. >_<

-------------------------------

MOMENTS exists if we believe it will exist, if we are willing to create it. We have 24 hours a day 7 days a week... and still... we will not realize what we are doing. We can create a world where we can say we have 30 days a week... and we have a million seconds in a minute. I made it. It exists when I said it.

Things didn't just exist until somebody created it. Or so, I believe. It's the same thing on how we believed, on how we live our life. To become happy? Figures are just figures. Don't be blinded by it.

excerpts from: 25th hour

***

i had some realizations after reading that part..
but i can't share what it is. sorry guys.

(-.-)

stomach ache + headache

2009-06-19T16:11:00.004+08:00

stomach ache + headache = a life that really sucks!

I had stomach ache last Wednesday, it really hurts so much. I think I got it from overeating pineapple. Uh oh.. my bad..
It got even worst yesterday.. plus the fact that I had a bad headache.
I felt dizzy and it made me want to throw up!

In two days I just ate once, but not the usual meal. Burger mcdo and fries, other than that there’s nothing.

But I’m a lil bit better now. I think and I hope so.

think about it.

2009-06-16T15:22:00.012+08:00

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS?

ANO BA GUSTO MO SA BUHAY?

These are just some of the questions they usually asked.

Kaya ngayon, heto ako nag-iisip.

Ano nga ba plano ko sa buhay?

Well honestly hindi ko din alam.

Hindi ko pa rin mahanap mga sagot sa mga tanong na yan.

Naguguluhan pa rin ako.

Hanggang ngayon parang wala pa rin kasing direksyon ang buhay ko.

Napaisip tuloy ako, ten years from now, were would I be?

hmmmn..

I think I need to do some soul searching before I move on to the next step of my life.

back for real

2009-06-15T12:01:00.004+08:00

Oh yeah! I’m back for real!
I really misssss blogging! Sorry for taking up so long..

I was just busy with stuffs and sort of laziness as well. Hehe!
I almost forgotten that i have this journal. so meanie! >_<

Wondering what makes me busy aside from ~~job haunting~~? Here's my list.

(I actually stopped looking for a job.)

1. reading – I’ve been hooked in teentalk lately. Haha! Especially in creative corner, I enjoy every moment reading stories made by those talented teens.

2. chatting – more often than not, I’m always online in crazy chat, visiting TWC of course. Sharing ideas and getting to know the members deeply. I started to love them.

3. hanging out with friends – I must say I’m quite busy in my cyber world, but I always make sure to give my friends an extra time. Mahirap na, baka magtampo sila.hehe. good thing they understand me.

4. lastly REVIEW – oh yeah! I’m currently reviewing for the upcoming civil service examination. Guys please pray for me. I hope I can make it this time!

So how are you guys??! I’ll do the hopping now! Coz I did miss you guys.

SDTG

2009-05-22T20:07:00.008+08:00

** this post is soo long! so please bear with me.

PROLOGUE

love is happiness...

love is smiling when you hear that person's voice...

love is the butterflies in your tummy no matter how many times you see that person...

love is when you look at them and smile for no reason...

love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly...

love is painful..

love is hard...

love is sacrifice..

love is sadness..

“Can I live without the happiness? Can I live with that sadness? I don't know...I don't know anything anymore”

I remembered that once I fell in love with a Gangster. I don't know how and when it happened. But I do remember saying that

"I have fallen for this one of a kind stupid gangster. Oh wait, let me ~~scratch~~ that. I LOVED this stupid gangster.. I gave him happiness while he gave me suicide in return. I know, It sucks. But I never regretted loving him in the first place, well… maybe I did."

I also remembered loving everything about him ncluding his flaws.. Friends told me that we met in a very spontaneous way.. And then everything happened so fast..

But... Who's this gangster?? I know two gangsters but..

Which one am I dating?

****

"I love you.. Kahit na san ako mag punta, ikaw lang mamahalin ko. I love you.. Kahit na ilang beses mo akong saktan, ikaw parin ang mamahalin ko. I love you.. Kahit na pagod na pagod na ko, ikaw parin ang mamahalin ko. I love you.. Kahit sa kabilang buhay.. ikaw parin ang mamahalin ko. I love you.. kahit na sobra sobra na yung pagmamahal ko sayo, patuloy parin yung pagmamahal ko sayo. I love you.. Kahit na sandali lang yung pagsasama natin, masaya ako dahil nakasama parin kita kahit papaano.. I love you, Kenji.. I love you.. I love you.. I love you.. UhnJaeNa,YoungWonHee.."

excerpts from "she’s dating the gangster"

******************

It took me two days to finish this e-book. And all I can say is WOW!!! It’s a best love story ever. It’s a simple story yet it touched my heart, to be honest it even made me cry,. I can’t stop myself from crying while reading it. T_T

The story began when the girl named Athena and her best friend transferred in a private school in the Philippines, then he met Kenji, the gangster. Nagpanggap silang mag bf/gf just to make the guy’s ex back to him, until they fell in love with each other. But everything got so complicated, then nagbreak sila, nakabalikan ulet, athena made so many sacrifices for kenji.

Dami pa nangyari, hindi ko na iisa isahin. Hehe!

The last part is so SAD!, Athena got a Hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, and it has no cure. Kenji did everything just to show his love for Athena up to the last time, so un nagpakasal sila,. Then Athena died. =( in her dead anniversary, may binigay na gift ung betfriend niya kay kenji, it was a video of his wife. Sinabi niya lahat ng gusto niyang sabihin skanya, then after watching the video, kenji decided to follow his wife. Ayun nagpakamatay siya.. so tragic and sad ng ending parang Romeo and Juliet.

I would like to thank SGwannabe (the author of this story) for writing such a good story!

my day.

2009-05-19T22:08:00.004+08:00

Early this morning, when I got out of bed, I felt weak. I tried to stand up to get some water but everything was spinning. I walked as if I am drunk. I went back to my room, then my knees gave up and I collapsed in my bed. Woah! I don’t know what’s happening on me. I went to the City having the same feeling. Luckily I did not faint. Until this moment I still feel dizzy. Huhu! What’s wrong with me??

****
anyway as i said, i went to the city with my colleagues.
Then Mitch and I saw this agri-trade fair here in tarlac.
it is part of the provincial government’s celebration of its 136th founding anniversary daw. hehe nag ikot-ikot kami kaya un napagastos tuloy kami.
mitch bought shirt and a crochet dress,
while i picked a bag for only 45php and a crochet sweater worth 200php. awtz!

lagot na naman ako neto kay mother.
masyado na kong magastos. waah!

chadik again?

2009-05-13T06:21:00.002+08:00

I’ve been so lazy to update my blog. Harhar! Reason is, I am back being a chat addict!

Month ago I register in Crazy Chat, at first my main purpose is to download,. I never thought of chatting again, besides I had a hard time familiarizing the site. Until such time na nag enjoy na koh. And I am used to it by now.

What I loved most in this site is that I became a member of The Woman’s Club (TWC) obviously it’s exclusively for woman. lol! This club is my new found home. It changed me. I became more expressive on what i feel, I am now sharing ideas and opinion, and the likes. It was a lil bit awkward for me to do those things before. but now i am more comfortable.

having fun

2009-05-10T19:32:00.002+08:00

It's time to step out into the world again. oh Yes!

A while ago I’m with my dearest college friends.
Kuya Onatz invited us in his Post Graduation Celebration. Too late right? Hehe
well it’s his choice.

I tried to refuse but I really miss them so I let myself go.

Though only few are present,
we still enjoyed the moment.
As always, I had some fun with them!

LOVE IT!! :D

BTW I would like to greet all mothers around the world!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!!!!!

job haunting

2009-05-07T07:01:00.003+08:00

Awtz. I was so bored so I decided to change my template.

But I realized I miss my old one so put it back. Hehe

Hmmn.. Due to unstoppable rain I am again stuck at home.

Nakakatamad naman kasi maghanap ng work especially pag umuulan.

Well its okay, I have the chance to rest.

xxx

Anyways, yesterday I went to the city with mitch, ayusin sana naming ung mga clearance namin. Kaso hindi na kami nakapunta ng school. We just walked around the city for another job haunt. Then pansin namin lapit na pala kami sa PLDT, so we both agree to visit kuya pao, who has been working there. Kaso wala daw sya. Instead si kuya Joey nakita namin. Ayun chikahan ever, then sabi niya apply daw kami jelexie, tumawag pa sya dun para ireffer kami. Haha! pagdating naming dun, wow! Hindi namin alam aapplyan namin. Wahaha! Nag exam kami then afterwards interview kagad. Duhh.. kahiya hiya kami dalawa ni mitch. Lolz! (napasubo talaga kami)

What we wrote in POSITION DESIRED? Hmmn.. MANAGERIAL TRAINEE.

WAHAHA! Kapal noh?! Fresh graduates without any working experience but applying for that position. Haha! tawa kami ng tawa paglabas namin ng office nila.

Watta nice experience! ^_^

rumblings...

2009-05-05T06:33:00.006+08:00

“There are lots of things that never go by rules,
There’s a powerful pile o’ knowledge that you never get at college.
There are heaps of things you never learn at school”

-from ANNE OF THE ISLAND
(L.M Montgomery)

It’s sad to realize that I’m not a student anymore. :( No more lectures, no more gala, and the saddest part is that no more allowance. Hehe! It sucks!

In my two weeks of saying goodbye to college, I learned a lot of things. Patience is what I really need to improve. Job seeking is not an easy work you know. its stressful. I need to put my best and all my patience in it. As a starter it’s really hard and I know that.

But for now I can’t be so choosy with whatever opportunity that will come my way. I just need more experience then I can soar high!

I'm so tirreeeeeeeeed! (0.0)

goodbye April, hello May

2009-05-01T03:13:00.001+08:00

April fool is finally over! Thanks God for that. Hehe!

I don’t want to be fooled again. Tsk!

And now here comes May! What to expect this month? Hmmn.. Let’s see.

Goodbye summer! Hello rainy season.

It’s so sad to hear from the news that summer will end up so early.

And rainy season will enter in the second week of May instead of the last.
Tsk!

xxxx

oh well. Today is Labor Day. My friends and I will go to SM for the Job fair. Haixt! Hirap magkawork.

I hope makakuha na kami ng magandang trabaho.

Goodluck to me!

busy! busy! busy!

2009-04-30T06:09:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the rare updates. I’m kinda busy now.
It is just that I started haunting for a job.

Tuesday, we went to Clark but we don’t have any idea where to start.toinkz! We just walked and walked until our legs are in pain. Still no job found. (Actually hindi naman kami masyadong nag effort sa paghahanap.hehehe)

then kahapon, nag ayos kami ng mga papers like SSS. NBI clearance etc. so that ready na anytime na kailangan. I’m deadly tired whenever I got home. That’s why I wasn’t able to update my blog even though I’m craving for it to do.ugh!

unfinish

2009-04-27T06:08:00.005+08:00

It’s raining, and I was so bored. ugh! So napagtripan ko ung nakita kong paper dito sa house. I wrote all my craziness.

“I thought the world is mine, for I was living life to the fullest.

But then I realized I was wrong, I’m just deceiving myself.

I find that my life is not all that I thought.

For long years, I have committed and dependent to no one except myself.

Then you came into my life and gradually, I saw my incompleteness.

You made me realized that I am lack in many things, foremost being love.

You are the one who complete that missing piece of mine.

………………………………………………….”

*While writing this piece of nonsense, I received a text from HIM. grr!
So I was distracted by HIM, all words that overflowing my head are all gone. ugh!
And now I don’t know how to end it.
kaasaaaaaaar!

graduation

2009-04-23T23:11:00.010+08:00

waiting for the graduation march..

Finally.. after a long wait, graduation has been ended.

So this is it. Another chapter of my life came to an end.

And another one will surely open.
It is just the beginning of facing the real life.
One Step forward for my dreams.

Whew! Hope I can make it!

xxxx

as a whole, naging maganda naman ang graduation namin.. hmmn..
although gutom na kami ndi pa rin tapos. haha!

habang busy sila sa stage, xempwe busy din kami sa picture taking. hehe
(pasaway talaga kami.. bwal camera sa loob yet go pa rin kami.tnt)

our best instructor also graduated. the guy at the middle.
he finished his materal degree.
Congratz sir! (*.*)

after the ceremony..

retrieval of toga

xxxx

i will surely miss you guys.. walang limutan.
hope nothing will change.. ^_^

my beloved friends..

xxxxx
pansin ko lang.. ndi updated ang date ng camera.haha!
(april 22, 2009)

headache

2009-04-15T20:03:00.001+08:00

Whew! Headache is attacking me once again. Huhu!
Gawa siguro ng pagod at ineeett.. harhar!
Then naulanan pa koh kanina.. grr!

It really suckz! :c
Hate iittttttt!

xxx

nweiz.. I just got home. I went to SM Clark

and bought a dress and sandals for my upcoming graduation. Hehe

I can't tell the whole story due to my headache..sorry..

Isa lang masasabi koh..

MASARAP MAG SHOPPING LALO NA KUNG MAY PERA KA TALAGA. haha

Lenten special

2009-04-13T06:43:00.009+08:00

Mitch and I together with her boyfriend and my friend Jennifer went to Bamban grotto last Wednesday. ^-^ it features the Our Lady of Lourdes statue. Going up the grotto is the start of sacrifice; we conquered 160+ flights of stairs I think. Wow!

At the top, my eyes enjoyed the beautiful view, the new Bamban Bridge, Mc Arthur highway, etc. I am really a nature lover!

before lunch time we went up the hill above the grotto. whew! its a nice experience. para na rin kaming nghiking.

going up.

down...

we almost crawl while going down the hill. haha! nakakatakot kasi pababa

before we left the place, we visited the last spot. the cave...

this is the only group picture we have..

ooopppz.. hindi pa ntapos dyan ang sacrifice. hehe! we left at around 2.30pm, and the problem is WALA KAMI MASAKYAN PAUWI. hahaha! so we walked along the highway (isipin mo naglalakad ka ng ganung oras? kamusta ang init ng araw?lolz!) finally a public vehicle came. sa sobrang init nagpalamig muna kami sa Mcdo bago kami tuluyang umuwi. ehe

It is the best thing happened to me this Lenten Season.

xxx

haay... napahaba na nman post koh.. hmmn..
(Another set of photo's that will make my friendster account explodes.haha!)

updates

2009-04-04T07:32:00.004+08:00

April 2 – we had our picture taking for our University year book. After that we look after our Clearance and Memorandum of Agreement (MOA).haizt! It’s quite tiring walking and walking to the whole building. After we had our refreshments, we decided to go home. I was so happy kasi ~~makakapagpahinga na rin ako.~~ But after I reached home, Mama said we need to go to my tita’s house. Ugh! It’s my cousins’ graduation nga pala. Huhu. So kahit super pagod na sumama na rin ako.

April 3 – yii. Yesterday. I went to our municipality to have my voters’ registration. Hehe I thought maliligaw na ko. Hindi ko kasi kabisado dun. That was my first time na mapunta ako dun. Haha. Salamat sa tumulong sakin. Hmmn.. It was 4PM when I leaved that place. But instead of going home, I went first to my friend. Chikahan ever.

Yii! Don’t know how to express my emotion this moment of time.. haha! I’m soo happy!!.. yiiii. Last night, my old friends and I were texting, and they said they will come to my graduation. Yeah! Am so excited really! How I wish April 22 na! para makita ko na sila ulet. I hope all of them can make it. SANA! SANA! SANA TALAGA! Most of them kasi have their work that day. But Erika assured me last night na mag aabsent sya sa work para makapunta lang. (I’m so touch. hehe)

boring..

2009-04-01T07:26:00.004+08:00

It’s already April! Woah. March seems to pass so quickly. See how time flies really fast?.

Anyway, I was so lazy to update my blog. Uhmmn. It’s because I have nothing to share. My life is boring nowadays aizt? Yes it is.

For three days I was just stuck at home. Observing the TSU Forums about the so called CCS Collusive Practices,Reading books, sleeping, texting the whole day until my fingers ached, and (Ayoko din naman gumala kasi sobrang init sa labas.)

but later i will going out! yii! finally! haha I miss going out with my friends..

welcome

2009-03-28T06:32:00.002+08:00

After a long tiring day, I received good news!

The husband of my friend Bea texted us,

saying that our friend gave birth of a baby boy!

I don’t know if they already given him a name

Yii! Na excite talaga ako kagabi. Haha!

I even dreamt of her baby boy..

Gusto ko na sila makita. Hehe

Welcome to the world baby boy!

Congratz my friend, for being a mommy of two beautiful children.

morning rants

2009-03-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

Time check: 12:18AM
Thunder, hero heroine and moment of truth. I’m listening to these three songs continuously.

I dug up the fringe, looking for something to munch on. There it is, I saw a bar of chocolate. I still have one pa pala. I almost have forgotten it.hehe

I can’t sleep. There are heaps of things running thru my head until now.

Thanks to sheena, I never got bored. We are texting each other the whole night. Topic: “LOVE”, "FRIENDSHIP" and the "FUTURE". hehe. I miss that girl. Haiyzt.

Hmmn.. I think I need to buy a new notebook. ~~Not for school purposes~~. I am using it as scratch, whenever my hands are itching to write something :) this one I’m currently using is almost full. Only two clean sheets are left. how sad.

happy

2009-03-25T05:41:00.002+08:00

its so obvious na hindi ako nag- aaral ng mabuti. hmmn..

I never posted anything about graduation in this blog. Not until yesterday that I saw my grades!

Totoo na toh’!!

Ggraduate na koh.. yeheey!

Haha!

April 22, 2009 will be the BIG Day!

Congratulations to all graduates!

picnic/pictorial

2009-03-22T21:11:00.007+08:00

That was taken during our “picnic day”. As I had said from my previous post, we planned a picnic for our barkada, and that’s it!

we held it in this vacant lot with a bahay kubo. hehe

So the picnic turned to pictorial. Haha

As a whole, it went all good. We had a great time together. Almost all of us did come.

I served as their photographer. Haha! That’s better for me than to drink liquor right?

xxx

Mission Accomplished!

xxx

we had taken lots of pictures. if i will sum it up, it will go around 306 pictures.haha! hindi nman masyadong addict?

other pictures courtesy by:

kuya onatz
khamz
mitch..

blog thru phone

2009-03-20T11:48:00.002+08:00

finally i have my new layout! haha
anyway.. let me proceed to my topic.

I was so deadly tired when I reached home last night. I’m also lazy to face my PC and check my blog.

Then I remember my phone. I picked it up and hit the internet browser. I once again visited TPC and other wapsites. :D then there it is, I saw a google search in one wapsite, I did not waste my time and I googled my blog. Haha! Yeey! Thru the help of my mobile, I was able to visit my blog and others blog for FREE! :D

though there is some part of the blog that I can't access, part of it is the comment. I can’t open it. I can’t put messages in my chatbox also. Pero okay na rin. Solve solve na ko magbasa ng blog ng iba. my laziness to turn on my PC is not a hassle for me to take a glimpse of it.

suhol...

2009-03-17T07:07:00.005+08:00

I was invited by betina to join their 'gala' last Sunday. For the first time I refused.
Why? Simply because I don’t want to be their chaperon, haha!

Sino ba naman kasi ang papayag, eh partners partner sila. Surely naOP lang ako dun if ever sumama ako.

What’s nice about it is that, I’ve got an award! Wahaha.. JP and Vlad bought me chocolates. (treat daw nila xeh nakisama ako?suhol lang yata weh..)

I felt insulted when mitch told me that the two guys are so happy the moment they said that I can’t come with them. Awtz! But its okay now. I have my chocolates. :D Haha!

chocolate addict

xxxx

anyway i would like to thank the following for their treat (yesterday)

NALD for the nestea and biscuit . it serves as my lunch.LOL
JP and VLAD for the chocolates
COUSIN for my transpo fare.
KUYA PAO salamat sa siopao. yoko na ng chowking, next time yellow cab naman. haha kiddin.

sentiment of a student

2009-03-16T06:26:00.004+08:00

I am currently editing our thesis documents.

I just stop to update my blog.

Honestly I’m losing my patience already.

Ugh! What the heck?!

Nakakaasar naman kasi!

Wala ng ginawa kundi paulit ng paulit!

Pabago bago kasi isip. Naman!!

Why can’t he check it all and

say all the things we needed to change in our docu?!

Para minsanan nalang sana.

okay pa sana if it is only 10 pages or less.

But hell. I summed up our docu, and it contains 67 pages.

Hindi ba niya alam na mahal ang ink and bond paper?duhh!

Haiyst!

I'm suck of it.

PS: Sorry.. I can't help it. I just wanna release whats inside me.

interview

2009-03-12T06:48:00.007+08:00

NOTE: it is a nonsense post.

Yesterday, we had been called for an interview regarding of our subject “Fieldtrip and Seminars”. (I thought makakalusot kami!).

While waiting for our turn, I can’t help but to watch the different scene inside the faculty room. Some instructors are busy with their paper works; others are waiting for their time to the next class. There are also groups of student, trying to fix their problem about their grades. (sigh)

I focused my attention to the interview. Sir Jeng is not yet done asking questions.

Their conversation:

Sir Jeng: okey heto nalang, do you have a girlfriend?
Guy: kabbreak lang po Sir.

Sir Jeng: ahh good. I would like you to meet Ms. __________ (he pointed to a student near him. sorry I forgot her name.lol)

Betina, Joan and I looked at each other. Remember the interview must be all about “Fieldtrip and Seminars”. Then what the hell he’s talking about?! He’s invading his personal life. Panic runs through us.lol

Then it’s our turn.
Sir Jeng: So, what is the relevance of fieldtrip and seminar to you as a student?
Me: Sir, it helps me to adopt and know new technologies. Blah blah blah.
Sir Jeng: anong new tech ba nakita mo nung fieldtrip?
Me: (smiling)
Sir Jeng: Nakasakay ka ng bus?
Me: hmmn.. yes sir. Then nakakita din ako ng mall. Haha
Sir Jeng: oo nga naman. How about you ms. Betina? First time mo sumakay ng bus?
Bet: no sir, second time naman po.

- Wahahaha. We are laughing throughout the interview! Tsk! We (plus the guy) are victims of his unusual trip!

summer time!

2009-03-10T06:06:00.004+08:00

Last Friday, I officially started my Summer Break! :D
No more quizzes and projects, no more deadlines to meet,
and most especially no more classes!
though we are still required to visit our school for the checking of our thesis documents.

PETiKZ PETikZ nalang.

- This summer, there are lined up plans we wanted to do.

1st. Picnic – we have been planning this after what happened the day we had our drinking session. (In short we have hidden agenda into the others.)

2nd. Go hiking at San Clemente.

3rd. Baguio tour.

4th. Swimming, Beach and lastly

5th. Party! Party! Party!

Hope we could accomplish all these plans.

rants

2009-03-05T19:44:00.004+08:00

I just woke up from my afternoon nap. I woke up sneezing. And until now I’m still sneezing! Awtz! Its awful :C I have an idea that I caught this virus from Mitch. Uh oh. Hope it won’t get worse.

xxx

Finally exams are over! yippee! love it! I’m quite having time for myself now, more time to relax and more time for blogging!

After a month long busy schedule. Tsk!

xxx

also I want to change my layout again.. At this moment I like something cool in my eyes. uhhmmn.. some touch of light colors I think. but I'm having a hard time choosing between different layouts. And also sometimes I'm having this problem when I'm downloading skins.

can you help me??LOL

xxx

Anyway! I’m excited to see the 7th book of Bob Ong! I can’t wait 'til May. Hakz! :D

my february

2009-03-01T16:03:00.003+08:00

Woah! I can’t believe this. Time really fly so fast! :D

It’s already the first day of March. Ohh.

I’ve been in chaos in the previous month.
My life turned upside down.
But see. I survived!
Yup I did! :D
And I’m very much happy now, wosh!

The last two days of February is a blast for me.

27 – natapos na rin sa wakas ang defense. And fortunately pinagbigyan na kaming pumasa.ehe konting dagdag nalang okay na.

28 – I’ve been with my old friends. Yep! I miss them! We had lots of fun. Parang isang taon kaming hindi nagkita kung magkamustahan. Haha! We visited Bea and jennifer’s crib. Unfortunately the others are not around and had their works during that time. While my best friend met us after her duty. :D
We bought halo – halo and ate it at L.A (Luisita park). I miss that place. It used to be our tambayan way back in high school.

really love you guyz!!!

xxxxx

bloopers:

Textmate: we are walking at the park, each of us holding our Cellphone, and then my friend noticed these 3 boys, nakatingin sila samin. We concluded that they are waiting for their textmates, so we walked so fast sabay tago ng fones. Baka pagkamalan kami ung textmates nila.lolz

Cutie Guys: on the other hands, after magwithdraw ni essie, xempre kami naman todo hawak sa kanya baka takasan kami sa libre.tnt then she shouted for help. Haha! Eskandalosa sya grabe.tnt yun tuloy pinagtinginan kami nung mga tao sa parking lot. Sayang cute pa man din sila.hakz!

Push and Pull: we went at chowking and bought halo – halo but before pa kami makapasok syempre pinto muna, Erika pushed it knowing that it has a sign saying PULL. Then nung palabas naman kami sinabi pa niya sabay turo sa sign na “PUSH” daw. But she’s pulling it naman. Hahaha! Napuna pa kami nung mama sabi anong ginagawa niyo? Hindi yata kayo makalabas. Woah!

Grocery: before we parted we went first at the supermarket. Then karyn (my bhezy) introduced one of the diser. Woah! hindi naman pala niya toh kilala. Tsk! She only saw his name plate..haha!

Kakahiya talaga kami! Every time magkakasama kami kung anu- ano nagagawa naming kahihiyan.haha!

wake up..

2009-02-24T07:40:00.002+08:00

In my desire to be in solitary,

I’m losing some of the important people in my life.

I might not have realized it....

but I have been pulling back from people around me for a while now.

I need to get more social, get myself involved in group events and conversations.

pipe up!

I need to start again...

Start to connect with my friends and other people around me and stop avoiding them, if only I want to maintain our important relationships.

Or else...

Hmmn..

It seems like a new beginning for me...

time to heal..

2009-02-22T21:37:00.006+08:00

In my 3 days vacation (Friday, Saturday and Sunday), I tried not to do anything related to school stuffs. Yeah. I did not open my notes nor think of it. I didn’t even texted my college friends (except for Maria Au, who’s celebrating her birthday today. :D). Oh I’m sick of it!. Instead I did my household chores, I sleep, did little chitchats with my H.S friends and cousins, I also visited The Park Community (TPC) and CubeSite (I was a member of these chat sites). Doing those stuffs made me more relaxed.

I reserved this day, Sunday, for myself. It’s time to unwind! I attended the Sunday Mass and do mini shopping ALONE. Its good to be alone especially days like this.

During my solitary, I had my time to think about problems. So now I finally accepted that life is so cruel, it’s not a fairytale that always have its happy ending.

But regardless of that reality, God showed me the sign that He’s with me. And I trust Him. I know He will help me to overcome this problem. I will be heal. I just need to help myself.

picture from photobucket.

my home sweet home

2009-02-20T19:19:00.003+08:00

For more than three weeks I became busy from different stuffs. Most especially school works. Due to this I started misses my meals and seldom I stay at home. I always go home late or sometimes I spend my overnight in others crib. Even Saturdays and Sundays usually I’m not around.

But today I got the chance to stay here. Oh.. How I miss this.

I miss my household chores; cleaning, washing the dishes, laundry, cooking…
I miss the times that I just sit and enjoying the cold breeze air.
I miss my bed.
I miss my old time friends..
I miss my family..

I MISS MY HOME..

help for a friend...

2009-02-20T06:57:00.004+08:00

“a simple help can change one’s entire life”

Arvin, a straight guy. Oh yeah, just to answer Catherine’s question, he’s not gay. LOL anyway, he is our new found friend. An emo rock star na super mahinhin.hehe.

back to my topic.

Arvin had his problem that made him lose hope and faith. He’s so depressed the past days that made us worry.

Ma’am Alamo required him to pass a Summary of Philippine Constitution in able to complete his INC grade. Honestly he set up his mind not to settle this problem. But mitch insisted. Pinilit niya si Arvin na gawin ung research work niya.

We offered our help. Nag over night kami dito sa bahay. I provided the internet connection, Si Arvin wala sa sarili that time so nald did the research. Hehe Mahirap kasi mgsummarize kaya ngsearch nalang kami. Tsaka kulang na sa oras.

So kahapon nagpass na siya. And yehey!! Success! He got his Application for graduation; all he needed to get now is the instructor's signature. :D atleast hindi nasayang ung effort namin. hakz!

“It’s a good feeling to help someone who’s been part of our life.”

post valentine blog

2009-02-16T23:37:00.001+08:00

And here it is! Our valentine’s pixies. :D we had a lots of fun during this date. Actually it’s not part of my original plan. Supposedly I’m with my old H.S friends, but due to many reasons, I canceled our date. Then nagyaya si mitch, so ako naman ok go! Tutal kasama ko din naman sila gagawa ng case study kinagabihan. So that’s it! After we ate, we went to Maria Cristina park (para lang mgpicture taking. hehe)

The most memorable during that day is nung batuhin kami nung baliw. at sa sobrang takot ayun todo takbo kami. Nakaskirt pa man din kami. (wa poise) Hahaha!

@ mcDo.. lovekotoh..

xox

> @ Maria Cristina Park
(^-^)

parang baguio lang ahh...

(^-^) (o^.^o) (O.O)

we parted at around 6PM..
after that mitch, nald and I went to arvin's place for our case study.
we spent our night here.

arvin with DORA. haha!

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did you notice? we had taken lots of pictures. haha!
gusto lang naming mang inggit sa mga hindi sumama. specially AU.

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more pixie at my multiply

group picture

2009-02-15T12:55:00.004+08:00

haha! Just wanna share these pictures to you guys!!..
naupload pala toh ni kuya brian sa friendster nia..so i grabbed it.
taken last february 4, 2009 after we attended career symposium..
first time in the history na makumpleto kami sa picture.

take note: we are wearing our formal attire except sa dalawang pasaway..hehe

from upper left to right : ate che, kuya onatz, and mitch.
middle (L - R) : lee, me, au, joan and betina.
lower part (L - R) : nald, kuya brian and zai.

more pictures at my multiply.
hindi pa nauupload ung iba.. (o^^o)

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i will be posting some pictures with my friends during our valentines date.. SOON!!

stressed

2009-02-11T04:13:00.005+08:00

I’m lying if I say I’m okay.
Well I’m totally NOT!

I’ve been so stressed out from school this week.
I almost forgot to get enough sleep.
And I had no time to relax.

-------------------------------------------

I cry a lot once again. I can’t help my emotions, it come close to my surface.
I can’t hold on anything.

My life is in great chaos. by this time, I know what was wrong, I have my reasons.

Na realize ko na hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon makukuha mo ung bagay na gustong gusto mo. Kahit anong hirap pa gawin mo.

I’m in sorrow and I need to put a happy face to hide it.

I’m already exhausted.

all i wanted now is to sleep. *sleep for a life time* so that i won't feel the pain anymore. (wish ko lang) :(

goodbye for a while

2009-02-02T19:58:00.002+08:00

My turn to say goodbye
by: two friends

Detached and hopeless lying on the ground,
no one seems to care so I don't make a sound.
Silently crying the world turns away,
I called for help but my soul died today.
I walk through the halls crying and wishing for love,
I opened my arms and I was turned away,
I don't understand why people are this way;
The world is so ruthless, so cold, so unfeeling,
I tried to stop but it all seemed so unbearable.
So I turned my back and the world turned theirs,
I sit and cry and no matter how hard I seem to try,
All I really want to do is to die.
Now is my turn to say goodbye..

xxx

ok forget about the poem above..

Due to the circumstances beyond my control; I have to announce to you guys that I’ll be leaving my blog for awhile.
I am unlikely to be able to post for my blog the next days, surely because I will be busy this month. Arg! I hate it!
Im going to miss you guyz!!

I will sneak in when I can. Until then... bye

(^-^) (*-*)

Btw I would like to thank those people who show their concerns to me.. Especially my online kuya, kuya brian. Worry no more. I am now okey and happy. :D

Thanks a lot!

weird feeling..

2009-02-01T04:25:00.001+08:00

Honestly, I don’t know what ‘s the matter on me.

ohh how can i explain it?
I’m not in my mood these past few days.
It’s so weird. It’s a depressing feeling.
I don’t even know why I’m getting this feeling right now.
I feel lost and stuck in a place that nowhere to find. I don’t know why.

I keep on crying every night just to release all negative feelings inside me.
Crazy isn’t it?
But you can’t blame me.

I assure you. I don’t like this feeling of mine. :(

(-.-) (0.0) (-.-)

2009-01-27T03:29:00.007+08:00

… Could you please tell me

... Why life is so unfair

... I can be happy for a minute or two

... And Later I am sobbing in despair

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taken last Sunday, January 25,2009

I'm late for the 8:30 AM seminar,
and yet I'm still at my room took some shots before I left!

did you notice?
my cheek was swollen and my face ached.
I had toothache
and suffering for a week already. :(

the stranger

2009-01-24T06:23:00.004+08:00

I'm at the jeepney, Wednesday, January 21,2009.

Scenario:

a passenger sat at the left side of me. A lady at her late 20’s probably. Then along the way, she approached me and asked what time is it. I said “5:37 po” she started talking to me after that.

(Her name is Joanne.)

Joanne: I had a body like her when I was in my early age. (Pointing to the Accountancy student)

Me: they’re accountancy students.

Joanne: oh.. You know I took accountancy before. First HRM then I shifted to accountancy, but I stopped because I got pregnant. Now I’m planning to enroll Care Giver.

Me: (just listening)

Joanne: and also when I was in college I joined lots of beauty pageants. Etc.

Me: I looked at her ( hindi naman siya mukhang beauty queen)

She’s petite with swollen body and pale complexion.
She talked about her life, though I never asked her to.
She’s a little absurd; some of what she said gave me qualms.

I politely answered her ok, yes or just a nod still she keeps on talking to prolong our conversation. I got soo irritated!
The more I tried to end the conversation between us the more she got a new topic to open up.
She even insisted for my number. I regret that I gave her mine.

So to cut it out, I decided to turn my back and pretended that I am sleeping until the time that she got out of the jeepney.

You know its ok to talk with a stranger but not that much. and i think its wrong to share your personal info's to the one you just met that day.

shopaholic!

2009-01-22T16:35:00.005+08:00

It’s another shopping day with my two girlfriends mitch and betina. :D

Araw naming tatlo yun kasi lahat kami may nabili.haha! watta shopaholic ladies.tsk!

Betina bought another skinny jeans, she wanna buy shirts pa sana however she did not found the one she like.. On the other hand, mitch picked a pouch and a lil girly stuff. (mascara and eyeliner) hehe

Like mitch I had been tempted to purchased those girly things. Well mitch said we are now grown-up ladies so we need to practice ourselves to wear make-ups. :D
Aside from that, I got this simple black-green stripe hooded sleeveless..wala lang.. trip koh lang bilhin. I can’t resists items on sale..hehe!

i like the colors kasi.. my favorites.. c:

I checked my money after I got home.. uh oh.. only a hundred pesos left in my wallet.. tsk!
I still need to buy some stuff that I'll be using for the succeeding months, to do that I need to start being thrifty. :(

(-.-)

ohh.. they are planning to do shopping again next week..(0.0)
masyado na yata sila nag-eenjoy mamili..tsk! tsk!

nonsense..

2009-01-21T09:23:00.008+08:00

good morning!

waah.. wala magawa..

hmmn.. tagal mag 12PM..

tagal mag dismiss ni sir..

haizst..

gutom na koh!!

senxa na poh wala lang magawa dito sa lab

kaya heto pablog blog nalan .. :D

have a great day blogger!

the parade...

2009-01-19T21:11:00.003+08:00

Watta tiring day. I just got home. Supposedly we will have our midterm exam in ECO this afternoon (1-2.30PM), but our generous instructor didn’t come up! But still I don’t want to go home that early (which I really really regret!).

4PM I wanted go home, but the street roads are already closed because of the parade with celebrity guests MARIAN RIVERA and JOLO REVILLA (as part of MALATARLAK FESTIVAL). No vehicles are allowed to enter and pass the street. Oh no!! pano ako uuwi?!grr!

So I have no choice. I waited for the parade, good thing I saw Jenny at the crowd (birdbrain of The Park Community) she bought Mcfloats for both of us.hehe it’s already 6.30PM still no MARIAN and JOLO.harhar! nakabalik na’t lahat mga kasama sa parade silang dalawa wala pa.naman! I’m not eager to see them. All I wanted for them is to pass by so that the parade will end. :)

Finally here they are. First Jolo, well he’s a good looking guy, like his father. Then Marian, she’s really lovely, she looks fat at TV, pero sa personal she had a slender body actually.

A minute after I yelled, not because I saw Marian, but because I saw people coming on my way. Waah! I almost stumble! OMG! I kept moving backward to a secure place. Haay! Ano ba toh..

I won’t forget this day, the crowd, the traffic, stranded commuters and all.
Good thing is.. tomorrow is no classes day! yippee :D

xxx

FOREVER

2009-01-18T23:38:00.002+08:00

I found another song to love.. :D
Hmmn.. bakit ngayon ko lang nalaman tong song na toh?..haha

FOREVER

I may burn out like a candle and
I may pass away
I may fall just like a shooting star
my heart will stay
I'll be yours until forever,
forever I'll be true to the promise
I have made from the day that
I found you
forever your in my heart
even if were apart

I say, forever I'll be yours
forever I love you
I say, forever I'll be yours
forever I love you
my love will never fade away
even if I'll die and
I will love you until the end of time
even without your smile

So help me please I beg you
don't walk away I need you
just stay with me and be by my side
take my hand and will work it out

Unti,l forever I'll be yours
forever I love you
I say, forever I'll be yours
forever I'll be true
my love will never fade away
even if I'll die and
I will love you until the end of time
even without your smile

So help me please I beg you
to stay....

a cup of coffee for this cold morning...

2009-01-17T04:19:00.001+08:00

woah! What a cold morning!.. I’m too lazy to wake up but I’d rather get out of my bedroom than stay and keep myself under my blanket. it makes me colder even more. harhar!

a cup of coffee.. It helped a little to warm me. :)

I have a lot of idea overflowing my head. But I don’t know how to share it. Hehe I terribly want to finish this post coz my fingers,.. oh they are freezing!

xxx

Have a nice weekend everyone! :D

A-Z tag!

2009-01-15T08:01:00.005+08:00

Once again, I would like to thank Kryk for this tag. :D

A - Attached or Single? - Single for 20 years. :D
B - Best Friend? - Karyn and all my H.S friends.
C - Cake or pie? - Cake
D - Day of choice? - Sunday.
E- Essential item? - PC.
F - Favorite Color? - Black.
G - Gummy Bears or Worms? - Gummy Bears.
H - Hometown? - Concepcion, Tarlac.
I - Indulgence? - Family and friends.
J - June or July? - July.
K - Kids ?- None.
L - Life is not complete w/o - My Family and friends.
M - Marriage date? -(boyfriend muna bago kasal..haha!)
N - Number of magazine subscriptions - None.
O - Orange or apple? - Apple.
P - Phobias? - being alone.
Q - Quotes? - "We are made wise not by the recollection of our past, but by the responsibility for our future."
R - Reason to smile? - I got this tag.
S - Season of choice? - Rainy.
T - Tag people -
U - Unknown fact about me - I kill my boredom by means of daydreaming.
V - Vegetable? - ALL vegie.. :)
W - Worst habit? - procrastination.
X - Xray or ultrasound? - NONE.
Y - Your favorite foods? - Pasta.
Z - Zodiac sign - Sagittarius.

busy days..

2009-01-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

Finally! Exams are over!

Since I wasn't able to blog for the past few days, what I did is I wrote and summarized all the events and things I’ve done the moment that I am out of the blogosphere.

FRIDAY: we went to PCUM in QC. Sir Joel helped and guided us in constructing our hardware devices. It’s almost 10PM when we left his shop. We are all glad that we did our part to possibly make our thesis.

SATURDAY: 12:00AM, with eyes widely open; we traveled from manila to tarlac. We reached Tarlac at around 2AM. Compare to Mitch and Nald my place is the nearest, but I preferred to spent my night (or I should say day?) at Mitch’s crib, simply because I had no choice. It’s too early and I’m quite lazy and drowsy to wait for a jeepney.

I got home at exactly 3PM that day.

SUNDAY: It’s laundry day! After that I tried to review my lectures, but my mind still not yet ready to function.hehe so I threw my photocopies and browsed the net. When my eyes got tired I took my afternoon nap. (That nap turned to a very long sleep. I woke up Monday morning.lolz)

papa gave me chocolates.yummy! :D

i hide the others..hihi

MONDAY: after my class I went to Tarlac High (my school way back in high school.) to fix my form 137 problem. Anyway, that’s another story to share. After that I just started to review.. Review.. and review..

these are photocopies of my lectures. I'm not using notebooks.lolz

TUESDAY: done with the exams! (elec and 423) I’m sure I pass the elec! 423? Never mind that one.haha! Another one, my instructor in humanities keeps on teasing me as the “model of the year”. Harhar! (He couldn't forget the pictures that we submitted during our topic photography!) He also noticed my hair and commented “Ms Gebe, ang ganda pala ng buhok mo may kulay.”erk! so I said “Sir it’s natural.” haha! he's bugging me!hmpft!

Anyway I got a new wallet this day! It’s a combination of pink and brown! Love it! :D

WEDNESDAY: another exam is over! Our instructor is so kind. He dismissed us early due to the brownout. We spent our time for shopping! Haha! Not me actually. I just accompanied my friends. I don’t have enough money to buy something for myself so I need to spend my money carefully or else… tsk!

In a whole, my day is fine. My hectic schedule is started to loosen. :D

leave

2009-01-09T05:15:00.001+08:00

Good morning! how's everyone?

i just want to inform you guys that I will be on leave for a week or two.

I will be busy. I need to go to Manila later.

And also I need to review for my Midterm Exam next week.

but I'll still try to visit your blog at my leisure.

and keep visiting mine too.

I'll be back soon!

trip

2009-01-08T03:55:00.006+08:00

we went to SM Pampanga yesterday after our afternoon class! :) We just accompanied our classmates and friends. actually we dont have any plans to go there. They just forced us.haha (in short sabit lang kmi!) ayos lang may service naman.hehe

they bought a Dub City Hummer 2 seater that they will use for their thesis. i can say that it is very expensive. (masakit sa bulsa.tsk)

just click the here for the preview of what exactly they bought.

anyway. Betina made our day.haha She's our clown for the whole trip.:D she keeps on talking like a ngongo. I dont know if ngongo nga talaga or kung lasing lang ba.hahaha!

my favorite lines of her:

ngain ngayo miritong maka at miritong mamoy?
translation: (kain kayo pritong baka at pritong baboy?)

mag hingi ango nangamasok mukas, samihin nyo ngay sir muy hang mover pa ngo.
translation: (pag hindi ako nakapasok bukas, sabihin niyo kay sir my hang over pa ko.)

our tummies are aching because of her!:D adik kasi.haha!

xxx

trivia:

first time ko gumala sa SM na nakaschool uniform. and my feet are aching because of my high heels shoes.harhar! i darely not to do that again.hehe

load error

2009-01-06T04:19:00.008+08:00

last night after I got home, I planned to finish my case study in cisco, so i immediately sat up in front of my PC. while waiting for ronald's email (I requested him to send me the partial copy of his work), i visited my blog and other sites. An hour had passed still no email from him..harhar! so I browse again the web and wait patiently, until... this message appeared!

PAGE LOAD ERROR

oh noooo!!!!!! timing na timing huh!grr!!this incident also happened the night before. aist!
then ronald texted me that he forgot to send the case study. whatever!whether he was able to sent it or not I still cant finished it due to my Internet problem!

so the ending???

no accomplishments done.
i just WASTED MY TIME FOR NOTHING.

last day vacation

2009-01-04T19:08:00.003+08:00

vacation is finally over, all classes will resume tomorrow.

So before my mind become busy I just want to post something.

But honestly I have no idea what to say..

There's nothing to share anyway...haha!

Its just that I can't help my finger not to write.

Oh Well I have this case study which will be due on Wednesday,

but until now I don't know how to start it.

gosh!

I still have 2 days to finish it..

Cram! Cram! Cram!

I need to stop this nonsense post before I go crazy!ehe

goodbye holidays! Goodbye vacation!

Welcome back school and uniforms! Welcome back homeworks!

untitled

2009-01-03T21:47:00.014+08:00

people sometimes ask me favor. and

most of the time I didn't want to say "NO"

I didn't want them to think I'm not nice.

then I learn not trying to please other people,

I'm not living my life to please them.

I am solely responsible for what i want.

and I want to do what my heart says all the time.

(--,)

xxx

"Only I can change my life.
No one can do it for me."

new year's resolution blog tag!

2009-01-02T08:16:00.007+08:00

NEW YEAR'S BLOG AWARD

Rules:

You must be a true lover of the New Year to receive this award. The person to whom you give the award must also be in love with the New Year.
Post at least five New Year’s Resolutions. If you can’t limit it to five, then continue until you go out of space.
Pass the award along to as many bloggers as you like.
Let your recipients know that you have tagged them by leaving a comment on their site. Also, link back to the person who gave you the award.

I am tagged by rob and kryk! thanks so much guys! :D

as you see, i already made my new year's resolution before i found out that they tagged me. hehe but i promise to do another one so here it is:

I will balance my time for my family, cousins, H.S friends, college friends and myself.

try to hold my temper and avoid being angry all the time.. :)

I'll continue to add my collection of books and flip-flops! :D

I think I need to broaden and improve my English vocabulary to lessen my grammatical errors..hehe
lastly. More focus and be serious on my studies. I will surely do it.

hope to follow and achieve my resolutions..harhar :D

im tagging: yaz, eca and comfymama :)

new year's resolution

2009-01-01T10:31:00.002+08:00

New Year’s resolutions—I’ve made them, broken them, and returned to try again. Now I made again a seemingly simple resolution. I decided to focus on what matters most in my life, that can lead me to greater happiness.

There are lot of things I want to do, but this my top 10.

Things I want to learn this 2009.

learn how to eat healthy foods.
Gain more weight. I want to be fat again!
Learn to have self control.
Have more self-respect.
Lessen my laziness.
Build some self confidence.
Be more responsible.
Be more active.
Learn how to forgive and forget.
Lastly. Learn to love my self.

goodbye 2008

2008-12-31T18:33:00.005+08:00

We are now nearly leaving the year 2008.

But the mem'ries will surely remain. :)
and i definitely treasure it!

there are lots of things, events and adventures that had happened to me this year that are worth remembering!

I've gone to different places, I found out how hard working in a company, I met new people and made friends to them, I learned new things and ideas, more gala and bonding moment with my High School and College friends,.

Of course there are also problems which I think is really helpful for me to become a better person. I had lots of realizations. (I am lazy to enumerate them all.tnt). I became more matured and patient and also more open with my feelings to others. :D

I am thankful for the good and bad times of this year. Lessons learned and it made me a stronger person. I mean it!

xxxxxxx

btw just wanna greet my friend zai a

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

xxxxxxx

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!

LET US ALL WELCOME 2009 WITH A SMILE!

MORE BLESSINGS, HAPPINESS AND GOOD HEALTH TO US!!

movie trip!

2008-12-29T22:49:00.004+08:00

today i spent again my whole afternoon with erika. she invited me to watched movie. and their we go... we chose between desperadas 2, ang tanging ina n'yong lahat or iskul bukol. then we both agreed to watch TANGING INA, starring Ms. Ai- ai Delas alas.

waah.. this movie is really entertaining and lot of fun! the comedic excellence of Ms. Ai- ai made better by having the equally funny girl Eugene Domingo as her sidekick.

infairness dami q natutunang mga kasabihan.. kakaloka mga lines..haha! here:

ang batang masipag, pag laki, pagod! lolz!
practice makes perfect

but nobody is perfect

so why practice!

ang babaeng hindi natutumba
ay dating konduktora!!!hahaha lolz!

kung kaya ng iba

pagawa mo sa kanila!

It was a laugh fest all through out the movie. Our tummies are aching after we watched the movie.haha! gusto q umiyak kakatawa.haha! ang ganda talaga ng movie..sulit ang bayad. bongga! :D

christmas with my dearest friends

2008-12-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

(Late post)

my christmas is sooo saya! though wala kami handa ok lang, nag celebrate ako with my high school friends. tagal ko na silang hindi nakakasama so I want to give them time. erika fetched me at our house and we went to jennifer's place. hinila nmin xa para sumama..haha!

next stop? kina bea!.. sa knila talaga kmi pupunta para lang ibigay ung gift ni erika sa inaanak niya..hehe well dun na rin kmi nag meryenda. coke, salad, and chocolate! yummy yummy.. ^-^

tgal namin dun kwentuhan, kmustahan. 4 plang kmi nun mgkakasama pero ang ingay-ingay! nkavolume lhat ng boses nla..haha! (para bang laging my away?) especially bea..haha! (piz)

that time i kept on texting karyn (my best friend) sabi niya kasi sasama xa pero wala ang loka. so fer, eca and I decided to visit her place. nakasalubong namin si mama nia and ang sabi wala daw xa. well na kay BF pla xa..hmpft! we asked her mama if totoo bang married na xa. HINDI DAw. bruhilda talaga ung best friend q na un..grr!

so wala c karyn.. next stop again, sheena's house.. liked karyn wala din xa sa house nla..hmpft! mama din nia naabutan nmin, (ganyan npapala ng bgla nlang sumusugod sa bhay ng hndi ngppaalam..haha) so umalis nlan kmi at ngpunta robinson.. :)

tambay kmi sa jobee and waited for karyn to arrived.. finally dumating din xa..haay! bgo pa xa nkaupo sermon na inabot nia smin..haha! baliw, loka-loka, liar, ambisyosa!haha lhat na cnabi nmin xa sknya.. pnagtawanan lng kmi ng loka.haha! so gnawa nmin hnarass nlan nmin xa para manlibre tutal gutom na kmi..haha!

eun tawanan 'let, asaran, balik tanaw sa high school mem'ries, pnag chismisan kung cno ng ngstop at ngwork nlan, cnong my asawa, mag couple na schoolmate nmin bfore, my anak.. etc!

we predicted that erika will be the next to get married sa barkada nmin..na itinanggi nman niya..haha! i claimed the last spot xempre!hahaha

it's already 7 in the evenin ng mghiwa-hiwalay na kmi..

haaayy.. ang saya tlaga ng araw na un.. bitin ang isang araw lang smin. erika is planning again a get together party before new year. :) we had a great time. we really miss each other!

love them sooo much!!
and i terribly miss them..
hope to see them again.. soon!!

xx

hndi rin ngpakita si essie..hmmn.. ntakot cguro na bka harassin din nmin xa lyk nun gnawa nmin sknya b4 sa SM..hahaha

XMAS!

2008-12-25T00:10:00.003+08:00

wheew! i think everybody's busy for the noche buena!..

i just wanna greet you guys a

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

ENJOY!

KEEP SAFE! --,

tears

2008-12-24T19:05:00.001+08:00

all my anger and irritation are vanished when i saw him.
he went over here this evening maybe because i refused to respond with his messages.
i never thought that he is serious so i ignored him.

I asked him if he is drunk. He said NO.
he was crying.. i saw every drop of tears he has.
he's begging for my help..
what will i do?

i pity him..
I felt guilty.. :c
ugh!

>> Sorry but i really can't help you with that matter.. :c

message from him

2008-12-24T11:33:00.004+08:00

i received a text message from a unknown number early this morning.
then i found out that he is _____. (i liked to keep his name private).
He's my first crush way back in high school.. C:

here's the text:

..good morning! it's me _____.. kamusta na xa? (his "X")
do you have her number? can i get it? im begging you raine..
i'm just worried about her....

oh my!.. bakit ba ako ginugulo niya pagdating kay X niya?!..
its been a year or two, his x (who used to be my college friend) is already happy with her life, with her husband and child in short she's happy with her own family..

why cant he move on?!..
I'm out of the issue but his giving me this problem! damnit!

xx

uh oh! I don't want to ruin my Christmas, so raine.. relax!..

party! party!

2008-12-23T18:14:00.006+08:00

well after that tiring Christmas party of us.. we went ahead in our school and attended our socialization party!.. ugh! puro party huh?hehe

here's the highlight..

it's just a normal and simple party..
the program consist of pageant, the Mr. and Ms. CCS, inter department dance contest and some intermission numbers.

but the most awaiting! unrevealing! and the most extreme of all! (drumroll)

the CCS FACULTY production number..wahaha!

that's the most enjoyable part of the program..tnt

sorry don't have the video of their dance number.. hope they will post it in youtube.. C:

after the party we went to EZ center just for fun.. there's a band who's performing when we arrived. its cool! we stayed there until 2AM.hehe then we walked back to the cathedral and wait until the 4.30 mass.. waah.. we are all deadly tired afterwards. awtz!

i got home at around 6AM..hehe syempre dretso tulog na nun..hak!

that's the last "gala to the max" I've done this year..

Christmas party!

2008-12-23T17:15:00.007+08:00

whew! i'm done with my laundry, i'm done with the sickness.

so now its time for my blog!..

i said in my previous post that i will share about what had happened last December 19, 2008.

so here it is!..

uhmmn.. 4Pm that time we celebrated our Christmas party at McDonalds.. hehe
There was this exchanged gifts, kainan gallore, picture taking and ofcourse kwentuhan to the max!

about the exchanged gifts, lee is the one who picked me.. and here's her present! the little red wrist watch.. :D

I'm using it already lee!..hehe

thanks so much! mwuaah

I love that day really though we are not complete, ate che is busy in the office so she did not attended our party. :C

headache!

2008-12-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

i just got up..

my head is really aching.awtz! i hate it!

its like someone is squeezing it in full force.aist!

maybe it is the effect of not sleeping the whole night

plus the San mig light that i drank.

xx

i will post the story of what had happened yesterday.. uhmmn.. soon.. after this sucking headache of mine.!

usual day

2008-12-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

this is one of the long boring day of my life. there's no interesting thing happened to me this day.

5.30AM i woke up, i started doing my household chore and i finished it early than i expected, so i have nothing to do. i ate my lunch, do some texting and afterward i took a long sleep. it is about 6PM when i woke up again. i checked my phone and i have 2 messages unread from betina and mitch. i went out of bed and i saw mama holding 3 cadbury chocolates.yipee! i thought those chocolates are all for me.tnt she only give me one and the other one is for my Kuya. well better than nothing right?hehe

7PM i started browsing the net. checked some mails and update my blog.. i didnt stay for long. aist! i used all my time reading my ebooks.. (thats the reason of my seldom blog updates.tnt)

uh oh.. its almost 10.30PM, i missed again my dinner.. i have this wrong eating habit this past few days.tsk! tsk!

xxxx

i received an email from mitch saying " ang daya nio hndi nio cnabing hndi keo pxok!"

waah.. oh no! didnt we told her that we will not attend our Humanities subject today?hmmn..

xxxx

yipee! i got mama's permission to attend our socialization party tomorrow! and she allow me to spend my whole evenin with my friends!.. yeah baby! it's party time..haha!

A trip to manila

2008-12-15T16:15:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the rare updates. Me and my groupmates in thesis went to manila last Saturday and just got home yesterday evening. Ugh! The first day, we visited a shop which we think can help us in our thesis.

we don't know exactly the location of it, so we decided to walked, we didn't realized that is quite far! We walked for almost one kilometer!awtz! we are all deadly tired and starving at the same time. luckily there is a jollibee near the shop. After our meeting with our contact person, its gala time!yippee! We went to AliMall, gateway, and other unfamiliar Malls, its already late when mitch's uncle fetched us at the MRT station. we spent our evening at their place.

The second day is for gala..yep! thats right for gala only..tnt We went to MOA then back to gateway again and so on.hakz! (Hindi naman kami masyado ng mall tour) yii... we just roamed around. We have all the chances to shop and buy whatever we can afford, but still at the end of the day we ended up nothing in our hands.hehe (wala kasi nung gusto q talaga bilhin..hmpft!)

here are some of our photos..

me and mitch @ MOA

nkakasilaw ang araw magpicture taking ba naman kasi ng 2PM? awtz!

while walking..trip lang.

taken by nald..waya lng mgawa..tnt

behind those smiles I still feel the pain over my body..haha! specially my feet, its really aching.huhu

i want to end it up here..tnt yoko na ilagay ung mga kamalasan na inabot namin like maglakad sa edza at maligaw ligaw..haha!

++++

Next week will be the start of Christmas break but still there are more school works to finish. hmpft! But its ok! Atleast I have more time to finish the twilight series..yippee! --,

t w i l i g h t

2008-12-11T19:37:00.006+08:00

Its been a while since the last time I updated my blog. I'm not in the mood to blog this past few days because of my busy schedule.

But now I'm back!..

Since before I'm trying not to mention anything about twilight on this page. Why? Kasi lahat halos ng blog na nvisit q hindi mawawala ang twilight!tnt

but I cant help it! Waah.. While roaming at the mall yesterday, we saw that twilight is already showing. (hirap talaga sa province laging delayed.hehe) and thats it! Of course just part of our barkadatrip we decided to watch it after our afternoon class. I've waited so long just to watch the movie. harhar

Well, Honestly I watched it already over the Internet.(twice!) And yesterday at the mall with my friends mitch and betina.hehe

>> I love the movie, specially the character of Edward Cullen. His eyes. I don't know whats with it that I find my self kinikilig everytime I saw those eyes with golden tone..ahihi. (I don't want to elaborate more bout it. ehe) :)

Anyway, I enjoyed watching it inside the theater than of the PC.. one reason is because I'm with my friends and we really had a great day! we kept on laughing out loud inside the theater although there's nothing funny bout te movie. (adik lang kasi.. hehe)

*** i tried to buy a copy of twilight series the last time i went to SM Clark, but unfortunately the books are out of stock!grr!

thank you

2008-12-07T06:34:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank the following for their greetings.

First in the line... woop!

lee. Sya una ngGreet skin kahapon.ehe! (thankz)
birdbrain. Waah tanda na daw aq sabi nia.. (asah!)
betina. May bday wish xa skin at un ay...hmmn.. ang magka BF na q.haha! (zawai ka tlaga sis!)
leo. Ang bday celebrant din kahapon.(same kami wala handa.tnt)
keith. My cousin. Hindi daw aq nagrreply kea ngpunta xa sa house.ehe (tnx na rin khit late dumting mga msgs mo.)
jean. Couz nxt week kaw naman..haha!
zai. Waa.. kaw na sunod sa birthday list q zaido..hakz!
yaz. Tnx couz khit aq lan ngpaalala na bday q.hmpft!
jolly. Wala kna ibang ntxt kundi alak!tok.
che. Tnx din khit my tampo ka skin. :c
mitch. Awtz sis khit ano mangyari matutupad wish mo kea dont worry.lolz
pia pia. Hehe. Tnx sa greetings sa FS. Mwuah!
jennifer. Bruha tnx sa pagbati d 2^nd tym around.ehe
shen. Napilitan ka lan batiin aq weh. Ehe same pa keo ni bet ng wish for me. c(=

kua onatz. Tnx adek. Mali pa c bday reminder moh sa FS..tnt
kua E. waah npadaan sa FS q.ehe tnx sa greetings. kamusta ang qatar?

april. Inzan. Greetings via phone call huh?..(parang napakalayo ng bhay mu smin.tok!) sa lhat ng ng greet xa ang demanding..haha!
karyn. The last in my list. Tampo aq xeo bhez! Hmpft!

P.S :

*spoken* ganyanan nlang talaga huh?.. kung hindi pa q magttxt hindi keo mglload?hmpft! Sa dinami dami nio isa lang nakaalala. Nkakasama keo ng loob. Harhar

hmmn.. may nakalimutan pa ba aq? Sana wala..tnt

hindi masaya ang birthday q (lagi naman. mgtataka pa ba q?tnt) ginawa q buong araw? eun ng emote emote..hekz!

still my mga nakaalala pa rin skin.

thankz a lot guyz!.. waah.. love you all.. mwuuahkz!

>> oooppz! humabol pa c ama q. (6.20AM) while doing this entry i receive a txt msg from him saying : Rain, anak HAPPY BIRTHDAY.....

*thank you poh..kahit late na..hehe! (touch aq)

my 20th year

2008-12-06T03:52:00.006+08:00

Yesterday is my last day of being a teenager! This day is my birthday., I'm not a teen anymore.haiyzt! I'm sad. I'm not yet ready to leave my teenage life.hehe

So now I'm 20. 20 years of existence. I am a bit older. Being here in this crazy world for 20 years is a blessing from God!. He blessed me with good family, friends, real friends and a lot more. And I thank HIM so much for that.

I'm wondering what will be my life now that I am 20. surely lots of challenges will come my way, so maybe I need to grow up and become more mature and responsible than ever. (kaya ko kaya?)

My plan for today? Hmmn.. wala naman I just want to stay at home, do nothing. Besides I'm not feeling well.Ugh!

>> I would like to thank the following for the early greetings!

kuplogz
sheena
juvilan
jennifer

xxxx

btw. i would like to greet my friend LEO who's also celebrating his birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY tol..haha!

picture perfect!

2008-12-04T22:41:00.011+08:00

She's my niece Lee Anne, ang kulet ng batang 'toh.

kanina nandito sila with her mom and tita.

hindi naman nia maxado kinarir ang pgppose.hehe

Bibo and napakaenergetic.

pagod na ko pero sya go pa rin.hehe.

My pagkabest actress pa.

we are all watching her while she's posing.

mabahooooo!

wala man lang preparation.ehe

shane_me_lee-anne

some of our web shots.

Nagrequest kasi sya to take some photos so I gave her what she wanted.

Gustong gusto niyang knukunan ng picture.

blog tag

2008-12-04T21:16:00.012+08:00

tagged by kryk. (^-^)

Rules:

1. Each blogger must post this rules

2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves

3. Bloggers that are tagged needs to write ten things about their selves and post these rules . you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names .

4. Don`t forget to leave them a comment telling them they`ve been tagged and to read your blog.

So here are the 10 facts about me:

hindi ako mabubuhay ng walang lotion.hehe

tahimik ako pag nasa house pero super ingay pag kasama barkada.

fave tambayan ko specially sa house is ung malapit sa bintana.

chubby ako nung high school. (payatot daw ako ngeon avi nla)

fave past time ko is tumunganga. Kung saan saan npupunta utak ko.ehe

mataray daw ako sabi ng mga friends ko. (ewan ko basta ako hindi naniniwala dun.lolz!)

iyakin ako. Pero hindi sa harap ng maraming tao. Iiyak ako pag mag isa nlang ako.

tahimik ako pag galit. asahan mong hindi kita kakausapin..lolz

masikreto akong tao.

certified NBSB

>>sorry don't have anyone to tag. am just new here, so sad to say I still don't have any online friends :(

>> still I would like to thank KRYK for putting me on her tag list.

i appreciated it!.. (:

smiling moon phenomena

2008-12-02T15:28:00.002+08:00

Last night while I'm busy doing nothing, mama called me from the outside.

She said “raine! Raine! Labas ka dali.

Me: bakit?

Mama: tignan mo ung moon nakasmile.

I looked up the sky and waah! Omg! I cant believed this. The moon really smiles. haha! Para akong bata na naexcite that night!..I'm wondering why the moon is smiling back at me. yii I never saw that before. I cant keep my eyes from above. It gives me pleasure. I thought it is only ordinary stars close to the moon.

Then this morning my friend said “ did you saw the jupiter and venus last night?” by then I just realized that what I saw is the planets and moon together.

Venus, Jupiter and a crescent moon formed a smiley face, with the planets formed as the eyes and the moon formed the mouth. They said Venus and Jupiter have appeared side by side in the evening sky over the last week or so, but last night is the best night to see the “face” appear. And I was one of the lucky person who saw it.

it seems though it was telling us to be happy!

source: http://snow.gameshogun.ws/3science/the-heaven-smiles-upon-us

december is here

2008-12-01T16:36:00.000+08:00

Today is December 1, 2008. the first day of the month. Days are running so fast! Ayii!
As time passes by. I've become more and more excited. I love this month! Really. 25 days left before Christmas. And 5 days left before my birthday comes. Uhh

many are asking about my plans this month. I don't know what to answer. Do I have plans?

Honestly I don't have any. (Naiinis lang kasi aq pag hindi nangyayari mga plans q).

I just wanted to be happy atleast for the last month of this year.

oh no! oh no!

2008-11-30T22:53:00.001+08:00

Aww. Im sitting here for more than an hour.
And until now I dont know what to blog.
I tried to squeeze my mind. But nothings happen.
Im running out of words.
Maybe because I'm already drowse.
Yeah i'm.
Still I don't want to take a rest.
I want to do something. But I don't know what it is.
Uuhh ang gulo nuh?.

Nwei bago ako lalo mcraan d2.. I would like to bid you goodnight. c:

Moments with my dear friends

2008-11-29T20:52:00.010+08:00

I just arrived a minute ago.

I continued my plan to go to Angeles. Mama didn't like me to go but I insist.

She only gave me 100PHP. Thanks god I have my spare money.

Erika accompany me all day long. We walked from SM Clark to Balibago and its quite far!

Luckily we found the electronic shop I've been looking for.

After that we spent our time at SM.

We are both starving so she treat me at Mcdonalds.

We're not yet satisfied so we texted one of our friends to join us.

We told her that we are starving and didn't ate yet.

Wee. We drag her to the nearest fastfood chain. Jollibee. haha!

She cant resist so she ordered for us.

Watta dominant girls we are.hehe

We had a little chitchats until 7PM. Little huh?ehe

its getting late and i need to go. uuhhh.

the time is too short to talked about many things.

i wish to have time again with them.

I missed them a lot. Specially the bonding moments we had way back before.

++ i would like to extend my gratitude to erika, thanks gurl for walking along with me under the heat of the sun.lolz!

++ and also to essie. who take me to the terminal and didn't leaved me until i got inside the bus.

Thanks to both of you my friends. much appreciated. (^_^)

a new place found

2008-11-29T05:52:00.008+08:00

Yesterday we planned to finished all our pending school works. Unfortunately we didn't attain our goal (wala kami natapos kahit isa).

Suddenly mitch invited me to visit our friend who's suffering from sickness. (aq nman ayun go kgad.tnt). We never gone there before. Its our first time. And we never even thought of the possibility that we might got lost.

Waah. we know that place is far, but we didn't expected that it is miles miles away from the city.tnt (kulan nlan umabot kmi sa bundok.) We travel maybe not less than 1hour .ugh! watta place.hehe

Anyway it is ok for both of us. Atleast we roamed around and experienced to go to the place that is new to us.(^_^)

confused

2008-11-29T03:37:00.001+08:00

I woke up early this morning. My fone didn't stop on making much noise. It gives me headache!ugh! Its too early to do something. I'm not yet in the mood. My mind still in the dream world. Afterwards I get up from my bed, sip a cup of coffee and turn on the computer.ehe just wanted to do some research and visit my blog.

There's still confusion in my mind. I'm thinking if I will continue my plan to go to Angeles this day. I'm not in the mood, yet I need to go for the sake of our thesis.

things to consider before I decide:

>money. How can I go there if I don't have money?ehe.

>mama. Will she allow me to go out again and again? I dont think so.

> the destination. I don't know exactly place where ASI is located.

>alone. I will go there by my self. (makauwi pa kea aq ng buhay?haha!)kiddin aside.

What will I do?haay.